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I had quite a hefty amount of homework to do last night, which is quite irregular - but I didn't finish it all. I'm so out of the loop that I just kept on chatting away into the night.
Tim: just drop a whale on Venezeula and solve poverty!
And 5th buisness? T_T....Haven't done, I also failed my partners by not writing the script. (I had my reasons)
Silly Renae! (Oh no, now I'm saying it too....)
I have approximatly 10 minutes to write *in detail* about my weekend, because I want to, but I doubt I can in such a short time.
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Two days later:
Wow, I never got around to that - silly me, and I don't think I ever will. Started working and for those who want to know the details they can just ask me. Gah...this weather is frustrating and annoying, it's cold, it leaves my skin dry, and it makes me want to sleep all day.
I think I'm coming down with something but I'm not sure what - I've discovered something new about myself and that is that I hate working. lol Especially in winter...(I don't know...) Often times I wonder if it's wrong to feel this way..."ohh you'll feel so good when u get ur first paycheck"
Yeah, yeah...all I want to do is sleep and play l2...I haven't played l2 in so long. L2...L2...oh how I miss you're mindless level grinding. I swear to (uh?) the stars that I'll never be unhappy with being bored or this so called LONELY (how I wish for free time) ever again.
Stupid R, Stupid R - where are you going?
I've made mistakes that I am regretting this yr, ie. school and work - and it's frustrating. This whole winter feels like it is taking FOREVER.
I began thinking about how whenever I would do things I didn't like I'd just shut my brain off and follow instructions like a robot - a nod here, a smile there. Perfect. You're all set, "R". I've been trying really hard, I noticed, to not put myself in such situations and have forgotten how to do so. I'll have to start again, it's almost 3pm...about one hour until I gotta go. I don't want to, but I'll shut off my brain and sit it out like a brave little girl, and if in the end when my temp is up I'll be presented with my freedom...I only hope I choose wisely.
I've also begin realizing that I'm, as nicely put my the security guard at my work, "Daddy's little girl." I don't particularly like these types of girls, but nonetheless I haven't failed to notice how SPOILED I am.
What can I say - I like it? Is that bad? I'm not sure. I want to continue being spoiled so I can snuggle up in a blanket and go MMM warm...warm blanket.
Blah.
I'm trying, which is another reason why I have this job. I hope its not cold there....
ne way I'm off my friends.
lubz forever
-star
6 Comments:
so u started putting R sometimes...? And u know, its natural hating to work *at least for me*, dont feel bad about it. I always hated working..the fact of having to assimilate to society's standards...and working like everyone else...it sucks ass.
and sleep is good, very good. I'm always sleepy and i'm wondering...with what i'm reading during my spare that i may have 'issues' i didnt know about.
its actually bad to want to sleep all the time even during the daytime...><
and u saying the winter is taking forever...? heh its just started. *groans*
well...having to work...if u working for only 2 weeks or longer, the fact is u have to put up with it even if u hate it with all ure being. cuz thats the way life is...and u gotta do what u gotta do. now, remember when u didnt work before and enjoy that bliss for as long as u can before u forget what it feels like not to work.
have fun w/ all this snow...and be glad u dont have to walk through it for 3 blocks...*curses winter*
seeker
12:43 am
I haven't been tossed into the world of work yet, so I dunno about that... perhaps I'm just naive but I really look forward to when I can start doing something and getting compensation for it, instead of just studying. I guess in that way, I'm spoiled too. I just study my ass off all day.
I'm going to try and work this summer (I have to actually ><) hopefully I won't get rejected from everything again haha.
Feel lucky you can get a job =( haha.
There's nothing wrong with being a "daddy's little girl"... (or rather, mommy's boy for me) independence doesn't come overnight =) don't worry about that.
4:52 pm
actually...being a daddy's girl is not frowned upon yet being a mommy's boy is...thats how society is...i mean...a 35 year old woman living w/ her mother is normal but when its a guy....*ahem* its frowned upon.
seeker
12:56 am
Whoa whoa, 35 years old eh? I'm barely half that age haha.
Hopefully by then I'll be independent enough =P but as of now, I'm still enjoying it.
12:00 pm
mmm im ok w/ getting a job, but theres hours are insanely long and for too many days in a row.
i think i only got the job because not many ppl applied, and because she desperatly needed ppl to do the work she or her high others do not want to do.
for example, i found out that this girl whos in the same situation as me also goes to OCS ..we work together a few times, she's mishis age (gr 11). it made working there so much better.
but ne way.
i was saying, we both had the similiar experience of telling out boss that off all the places we would want to work, cosmetics would be last. and OH HO look where we diddly doddly end up, in cosmetics - and guess who hired us! the sales manager of cosemtics! a bit fishy eh? nonetheless, i dont like the attitude of the ppl there, altho there are very nice girls
today one of the workers there was whispering to me as we wrapped gifts how she hated how everyone acts like they're a boss over u, she even said being young is nice because they dont treat u bad. most of the time i nodded and agreed - she was bitching...as much as this sweet lady could, (shes very shy and timid) and i was letting her, but the fact of the matter is that kyrstina and i are treated similiarily, wid the same type of "ur so annoying" attitude, and yet for SOME REASON we are too fucking important to get a bloody day off
PHEW.
12:28 am
><...sucks ne...the countdown is now..just wait and u'll be finished.
seeker
12:07 am
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